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I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm so, so sorry.
I AM NOT DEAD. See? *waves* Not dead.
It's been over a year since my last update. Soooooooo much has happened. I finally broke down and got my hip looked at by a surgeon. That was not so fun. I'm not going to go month by month like I did last year. There is far too much to tell!
The short version? Well... I spent a few months trying to re-enter the dating pool. But all the guys I went out with were either creepy as hell or just plain losers. So I gave up. I gave up hardcore, too. I swore off dating and men and just absorbed myself in roleplaying online. It's not as fun, but... it was better than bring around creepers. I spent my summer in funeral honors, and it sucked. Honoring our fallen is very, very important, but I hate standing still with a passion. And the chief in charge was kind of a doofus. But I was on the gun line, so it was not all bad. I got to call for a few funerals, so... yeah. That means I was the one in the middle yelling, "Ready! Aim! FIRE!" to the rifles.
Not long after I got out of the detail, I met another role player who's writing caught my attention. His use of grammar and punctuation caught my attention first. Then his stories sucked me in. A couple of weeks later, he asked me out. I relented, though I was not so sanguine about it. A few months later, he had stolen my heart and given me his. He moved in with me in December and now we're married. ^^ He makes me so happy, words fail me.
Some of the things he's into make me just shake my head and sigh. But he's a guy, and that's life. I'm sure some of my stuff does the same to him. It's all good. I love him. He loves me. That is all that matters.
Apart from that... I haven't much to tell. I have not done a lot of writing this last year because, aside from the roleplaying that I was into, my muse took a hike. It just packed up and left, telling me to suck a dick. Well... my sweet husband brought it back. He inspires me to draw and write. I am very thankful for him.
I AM NOT DEAD. See? *waves* Not dead.
It's been over a year since my last update. Soooooooo much has happened. I finally broke down and got my hip looked at by a surgeon. That was not so fun. I'm not going to go month by month like I did last year. There is far too much to tell!
The short version? Well... I spent a few months trying to re-enter the dating pool. But all the guys I went out with were either creepy as hell or just plain losers. So I gave up. I gave up hardcore, too. I swore off dating and men and just absorbed myself in roleplaying online. It's not as fun, but... it was better than bring around creepers. I spent my summer in funeral honors, and it sucked. Honoring our fallen is very, very important, but I hate standing still with a passion. And the chief in charge was kind of a doofus. But I was on the gun line, so it was not all bad. I got to call for a few funerals, so... yeah. That means I was the one in the middle yelling, "Ready! Aim! FIRE!" to the rifles.
Not long after I got out of the detail, I met another role player who's writing caught my attention. His use of grammar and punctuation caught my attention first. Then his stories sucked me in. A couple of weeks later, he asked me out. I relented, though I was not so sanguine about it. A few months later, he had stolen my heart and given me his. He moved in with me in December and now we're married. ^^ He makes me so happy, words fail me.
Some of the things he's into make me just shake my head and sigh. But he's a guy, and that's life. I'm sure some of my stuff does the same to him. It's all good. I love him. He loves me. That is all that matters.
Apart from that... I haven't much to tell. I have not done a lot of writing this last year because, aside from the roleplaying that I was into, my muse took a hike. It just packed up and left, telling me to suck a dick. Well... my sweet husband brought it back. He inspires me to draw and write. I am very thankful for him.
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I suck at this game.
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Blogging has never, ever been my thing. Keeping a diary was never my thing. My sister and my cousin could sit for an hour or two and pen down everything that happened in a day and how that made them feel... but I would get bored and toss the little book and go do something else. So it is with blogging. I think this is rather tedious. However! My CO suggested reflection, and this is a good way to do it.
2013 sucked. I am SO GLAD it is over! Let's recap, shall we?
January: Graduated boot camp. Hooyah! On to "A" school!
February: Boyfriend was in another state, so... I was pretty much alone for Valentine's Day. Not that I am a girlie girl who wants roses and chocolates, ETC, but... I want romance in my life too, DAMMIT. My friends and I had a LOT of pizza in February.
March: Right before my mom's birthday... my aunt killed herself. She was cremated ON my mom's birthday, and I had oral surgery to have five wisdom teeth pulled. My birthday, I was so doped up on painkillers, I couldn't function. Nobody would let me cry about my aunt. Nobody. So, my master chief sent me to see the chaplain. He let me cry. I tore through half a box of tissues in 20 minutes and missed PT to sit and sob. I hate crying. It gives me a headache. Chaps gave me a bottle of water, and we sat and talked. I felt better for it.
April: Graduated "A" school! Hooyah! On to my first command! I'm at an FRC squadron. This means three things. 1) It's shore duty, but it isn't like any other shore duty. FRC squadrons are a LOT more work! 2) We're a training command for pilots and air crew. They break stuff. I'm a mech. I have to fix what they break. 3) I am not going out to sea for a long while. >.<
May: Got the room mate from hell. She tried to get me in trouble the DAY she moved in because she wanted her own room. It didn't work. The building manager and I are kind of buddies, and my command was unimpressed with her pissy attitude about sharing a room. Me? I was hacked, but let it go. I bought a car in May. I LOVE my car.
June: Hurt my hip. Ended up on crutches. Was pulled from my shop because crutches and shops do not mix.
July: Put in physical therapy for my hip. Joyness.
August: Off crutches and back in the shop! The AC broke in my room, and the room mate from hell and I were put in different rooms. Thank GOD. I was all by myself in this tiny room on the top floor. Epic!
September: Put on mids. Blacked out the windows and tried to become nocturnal again.
October: Got a new room mate in the middle of the day while I was sleeping. I got about 2 hours of sleep that day and was afraid that we wouldn't get along. Fears were abated. She is SO COOL. We get along great! We even argue over who gets to clean. It's awesome. She bought a fish. I got promoted!
November: Put on days right before taking Thanksgiving leave. Went home and spent lots of time with my family. Came back kind of sad, but refreshed.
December: Moved back to nights! YES! I love night-check. Best shift EVER. I get off around midnight, so I get to sleep while it's dark, but I don't have to get up until after 8am! (That's late for me, okay?) Broke up with the boyfriend. Notice that he isn't mentioned since February? Yeah. There's a reason. Benign neglect is still neglect. I decided that I wasn't going to be a convenient girlfriend to someone who couldn't be bothered to call me back when he said he would. So, with the money I was going to use to pay for his hotel when he finally got around to visiting... I bought a gaming rig desktop computer. This thing, when it finally arrives, will scream along at a high speed! I'm so excited!
And so... 2013, overall, wasn't that bad. But losing my aunt the way I did? It stained the whole year. It really did. The fallout from that has been phenomenal. And dealing with the ups and downs of the now ex-bf? Well... yeah. Let's say... that was only fun when he was in a great mood. Not the worst boyfriend I've ever had, not by a LONG shot, but... he was never around when I needed him. And he had a myriad of excuses to not come visit me. And so... yeah. It didn't work out. We're still friends and all that. He's actually the first ex I stayed friends with as we broke up amiably and without tearing each other's hearts out. We just grew apart and then let it go.
So! My new years resolutions... are few. Realistic, but few. I resolved to get up an hour earlier (as soon as I get over this stupid chest cold) to spend at LEAST 45 minutes at the gym every day except Friday and Saturday. Obviously, I'm going to be doing different things while I work out, but mostly... I want to get back onto my elliptical machines. I fucking LOVE those things, and once I'm on it... I don't WANT to stop. Because I'm crazy, and I love to PT. Fridays will be yoga days, and Saturdays? Total R&R. That's my first one. My second one was to NOT rush into another relationship right away and just let things happen as they will. To be more patient. I made this resolution because... well... I had a date on Sunday with a guy I REALLY like. Really, really like. And one of his buddies was pestering me about going out with him, so I asked him for a date. He took me out for Greek food, and I had a GREAT time! And, apparently, so did he, because we're planning on another date! But I'm not going to rush into this. No way. Keep it slow, thank you!
And that, as they say, is that.
2013 sucked. I am SO GLAD it is over! Let's recap, shall we?
January: Graduated boot camp. Hooyah! On to "A" school!
February: Boyfriend was in another state, so... I was pretty much alone for Valentine's Day. Not that I am a girlie girl who wants roses and chocolates, ETC, but... I want romance in my life too, DAMMIT. My friends and I had a LOT of pizza in February.
March: Right before my mom's birthday... my aunt killed herself. She was cremated ON my mom's birthday, and I had oral surgery to have five wisdom teeth pulled. My birthday, I was so doped up on painkillers, I couldn't function. Nobody would let me cry about my aunt. Nobody. So, my master chief sent me to see the chaplain. He let me cry. I tore through half a box of tissues in 20 minutes and missed PT to sit and sob. I hate crying. It gives me a headache. Chaps gave me a bottle of water, and we sat and talked. I felt better for it.
April: Graduated "A" school! Hooyah! On to my first command! I'm at an FRC squadron. This means three things. 1) It's shore duty, but it isn't like any other shore duty. FRC squadrons are a LOT more work! 2) We're a training command for pilots and air crew. They break stuff. I'm a mech. I have to fix what they break. 3) I am not going out to sea for a long while. >.<
May: Got the room mate from hell. She tried to get me in trouble the DAY she moved in because she wanted her own room. It didn't work. The building manager and I are kind of buddies, and my command was unimpressed with her pissy attitude about sharing a room. Me? I was hacked, but let it go. I bought a car in May. I LOVE my car.
June: Hurt my hip. Ended up on crutches. Was pulled from my shop because crutches and shops do not mix.
July: Put in physical therapy for my hip. Joyness.
August: Off crutches and back in the shop! The AC broke in my room, and the room mate from hell and I were put in different rooms. Thank GOD. I was all by myself in this tiny room on the top floor. Epic!
September: Put on mids. Blacked out the windows and tried to become nocturnal again.
October: Got a new room mate in the middle of the day while I was sleeping. I got about 2 hours of sleep that day and was afraid that we wouldn't get along. Fears were abated. She is SO COOL. We get along great! We even argue over who gets to clean. It's awesome. She bought a fish. I got promoted!
November: Put on days right before taking Thanksgiving leave. Went home and spent lots of time with my family. Came back kind of sad, but refreshed.
December: Moved back to nights! YES! I love night-check. Best shift EVER. I get off around midnight, so I get to sleep while it's dark, but I don't have to get up until after 8am! (That's late for me, okay?) Broke up with the boyfriend. Notice that he isn't mentioned since February? Yeah. There's a reason. Benign neglect is still neglect. I decided that I wasn't going to be a convenient girlfriend to someone who couldn't be bothered to call me back when he said he would. So, with the money I was going to use to pay for his hotel when he finally got around to visiting... I bought a gaming rig desktop computer. This thing, when it finally arrives, will scream along at a high speed! I'm so excited!
And so... 2013, overall, wasn't that bad. But losing my aunt the way I did? It stained the whole year. It really did. The fallout from that has been phenomenal. And dealing with the ups and downs of the now ex-bf? Well... yeah. Let's say... that was only fun when he was in a great mood. Not the worst boyfriend I've ever had, not by a LONG shot, but... he was never around when I needed him. And he had a myriad of excuses to not come visit me. And so... yeah. It didn't work out. We're still friends and all that. He's actually the first ex I stayed friends with as we broke up amiably and without tearing each other's hearts out. We just grew apart and then let it go.
So! My new years resolutions... are few. Realistic, but few. I resolved to get up an hour earlier (as soon as I get over this stupid chest cold) to spend at LEAST 45 minutes at the gym every day except Friday and Saturday. Obviously, I'm going to be doing different things while I work out, but mostly... I want to get back onto my elliptical machines. I fucking LOVE those things, and once I'm on it... I don't WANT to stop. Because I'm crazy, and I love to PT. Fridays will be yoga days, and Saturdays? Total R&R. That's my first one. My second one was to NOT rush into another relationship right away and just let things happen as they will. To be more patient. I made this resolution because... well... I had a date on Sunday with a guy I REALLY like. Really, really like. And one of his buddies was pestering me about going out with him, so I asked him for a date. He took me out for Greek food, and I had a GREAT time! And, apparently, so did he, because we're planning on another date! But I'm not going to rush into this. No way. Keep it slow, thank you!
And that, as they say, is that.
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Diphenhydramine
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So... I have been put on the overnight shift. It really confuses my days, sometimes. I have looked at my LPO and asked, "What day it is?" so many times in the last two weeks! He's so funny, though. He'll make me guess. >.>
There are some serious up sides to this. The people working this shift are all kinds of laid back and cool. The shift is fun, and we get everything done because we're not waiting on the freaking flight schedule. There IS no overnight flight schedule! And... I get to talk to my man all the time now. He's on the same shift (in a different state).
The downsides: I have to take pills to sleep during the day, and while I could go home for a weekend, it wouldn't be worth it for my sleeping!
And... I so don't feel like going in right now. LOL
There are some serious up sides to this. The people working this shift are all kinds of laid back and cool. The shift is fun, and we get everything done because we're not waiting on the freaking flight schedule. There IS no overnight flight schedule! And... I get to talk to my man all the time now. He's on the same shift (in a different state).
The downsides: I have to take pills to sleep during the day, and while I could go home for a weekend, it wouldn't be worth it for my sleeping!
And... I so don't feel like going in right now. LOL
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Quick update
1 min read
I really have nothing important to say. My family is a mess just now, but there has been good news to even out the bad, I suppose.
I'm at my permanent duty station, and I fuckin love it here.
I'm at my permanent duty station, and I fuckin love it here.
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Singing
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You know you have skills with your voice when your warm-up of choice.... it Bohemian Rhapsody. HOOYAH, SINGING!!!
NAVT Audition today!
Wish me luck!
NAVT Audition today!
Wish me luck!
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